So, yeah. May has been nuts. A lot of changes in my life. Notably, I've had a major spiritual shift. I remember at the very beginning of the month, I was worried I'd be forced to stop my journey to take on a job. [see While Waiting for the Paint to Dry...Enlightenment.] But, now that the job has ended and May is almost over, I realize that I couldn't have been more wrong in my initial thought. I now realize that at that time, I was still living in fear. Now, the tide is changing and fear is becoming nothing more to me than just a four letter word.
The experiences I've had, each very real and very powerful, sometimes have me second guessing whether I'm going crazy or not. The "societal" side [aka the humanness, as Rev. Beckwith would put it] has me thinking that way. Although the societal voice is weakening, I can still hear it every so often. Trying my damnedest to stomp it out at this very moment, however, I am coming realize that it will only slowly continue to fade until it's so quiet only dogs and dolphins can hear it. And it is at that point that I will truly be conscious.
I can say, without a doubt, that I am finally awake. I've been brought out of my hibernation & can finally see it. I am awake. I am rubbing the sleep out of my eyes trying to put together the crazy dream I had in the moments before I came to. The beauty of this stage of consciousness, is that it's momentary (that is unless you were smashed the night before & you're gonna be hung over for a while...luckily for me, I wasn't drinking). With that, I say, "Good Morning."
Time to get out of bed & head for the bathroom to shit, shower and shave (my legs and my armpits, ass!).
I am ready to begin my Life.
