I'm not quite sure what this particular post is going to be about. As I'm not in the OMG-it's-a-new-year-my-life-is-gonna-be-more-fantastic-than-ever-! mood. As a matter of fact, I really don't even feel like writing.
But here I am.
I guess part of me feels like I should be writing something, since my last post was over a week ago...and it didn't really say much...but, then again, it said a lot at the same time. The other part of me feels like there's nothing pressing to say. Like I'd just be repeating myself in some other clever arrangement of verbiage.
Whatevs.
I could go on and on about what 2009 was like for me...but why? If you want to know...read my entries, check my Facebook...there's no real reason to rehash old shit. Live in the present...that's what I say.
So here we are, January 3rd...2010. What does that mean? So many of us are so excited for the "new year" because last year was so this or so that...but at the end of the day, are you expecting the year to bring you good things...or are you bringing good things to the year?
I must quote a wise old man...from Twitter... "Universe is 14 billion years old. Seems silly to celebrate one year. Be like having a fucking parade every time I take a piss." - 73 year-old dad [shitmydadsays]
I feel like so many people are expecting things to change just because the clock strikes 12 [or 00h if you're in Europe], but without consciously making a change within themselves first. And then we wonder..."Why did 2010 turn out to be just like 2009/2008/2007/1976?"
Well, my friend, it's because when the time changed...you didn't.
Life is about change...that's one thing, besides physical death, that we can expect. Nothing ever stays exactly the same...similar, yes...the same, no.
What are you going to do to change your life circumstances, besides making 347 New Year's Resolutions that you will forget about by January 13th? Maybe instead of listing all the shit you want to do...make like Nike and JUST DO IT! You gotta start somewhere. I mean really, how many of you ACTUALLY checked off your lists of resolutions last year? And, how many of you have the same inane list you had at the beginning of 2009?[!]
"I'm gonna lose weight/do yoga/quit smoking/drinking/fucking/complaining/washing my whites with my colors..." etc, etc.
I say throw away your list and just start being a better You! And with that, all of those things you want to change about yourSelf and release for good, will happen naturally. Focus on basic things and the specifics will work themselves out. Don't worry about losing 30 pounds, doing yoga 4 times a week, quitting smoking, eating more salads for lunch... Instead, focus on being healthy, generally...and you will see that your body naturally eliminates all those things that keep it feeling crummy.
The same goes for finding Love. Instead of wanting to "find the right guy or girl or dog", just focus on filling yourSelf with Love and knowing and feeling that you are deserving of it. And it will come to you. Release all of your expectations of being married or having a baby by 30/40/50 or whatever. Holding on to those limitations keeps you focused on something that's so unimportant that your tunnel vision prevents you from seeing the magic of Life and meeting "the one" [whatever that means to you] who may, in fact, be standing right in front of you.
The way I see it, New Year's Resolutions are infinite lists of limitations and unnecessary expectations setting one up for failure. Countless times I hear people say that they didn't stick to their list. Come June, no one remembers what they put on the grocery list, let alone what they wrote down January 1st.
To me, it's a joke. What's the point?
I say, just focus on what you want and allow the Universe to bring it to you. Allow the magic to happen, release all expectations of outcome, and allow yourself to be surprised. It's more fun that way. [Trust me, I'm living it.] When you just let go of all the shit, you will see that Life will happen in a way that you could have never expected...beyond your wildest dreams. Life becomes an adventure and It will bring joy and excitement at every turn...if you choose.
So, jump off the expectation bandwagon and jump into the flow of your Life.
Love your Self FIRST and share THAT with others.
You will see your Life turn around faster and you will shine brighter than you could have ever imagined.
Be Love.
Live Love.
Love Love.
...and Enjoy the ride!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Friday, December 25, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
It's Like That...
"We long for Love, success, abundance and all that is good to come into our Life. Yet, many of us feel we are not worthy of such good fortune. It is a great moment when we finally realize we are worthy of all the goodness, all the greatness and all the Love that Life has to offer. For it is that moment we realize our true nature, our true identity and from that moment forward our lives change. When we know we are worthy of our Heart's desire, it shows up effortlessly."
- Mastin Kipp
I couldn't have said it better mySelf...
biz
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Surfing.
I'm officially a real life gypsy.
I have since left my friends lovely home in the quiet Paris suburb of Cachan, to...of all things...end up...
Couch Surfing.
Let me just say...
A
W
E
S
O
M
E
experience.
I've been forced [knowingly and consciously] to trust in the Universe and allow my life to literally develop right before my eyes.
I began this authentic gypsy lifestyle last week, Thursday night. After working my first night at one of the coolest bars in Paris, not knowing where I was going to sleep the following evening, I was sent an angel...with an available couch.
Word.
So here's basically how it went...
I returned to Cachan after I got off work...uh, at 6am...and crashed for my last night [which was, by that time, really Thursday morning]. After "sleeping" for the "night" [...I hardly consider 3.5hrs of sleep, waking up at 10am after an all night shift, a "good nights sleep" LOL], I finished packing my suitcases, at a nice lunch and Nespresso-ed a purple capsule [anyone who knows about Nespresso, the purple cap has a "strength" level of 9...GOOD MORNING!].
Upon my what-is-my-new-life-adventure-going-to-be-like reflection, and chat with, Fetta, my friend's nanny, as I awaited official confirmation of my couch, I made a call to Shine & had one last chit chat before my adventure began. [I had no idea when I was going to have access to another "fixed" line, cuz my cell is prepaid...and an hour+ of .55c/min chitting is not in this gypsy's current budget! ...and we're talking Euros folks...]
The few days prior to leaving my friend's place, I had been pretty scared of what the unknown would bring. It truly took effort for me to continually shift my thinking and feeling toward what I wanted to experience...rather than seeing myself sitting in some random phone booth with all my shit in the rainy Paris winter...which could have been very real...if I chose that thought.
For [especially] those few days before, I really shifted my beliefs of what "was" and what could be. I literally had to give up trying to "figure it all out", and allow what I believed the Universe to be...be. And, trust It.
So, I trusted.
Around 3:45 [aka 15h45 cuz I'm in France] Thursday afternoon, I got my confirmation on the couch.
It's ON and poppin!
The Universe has delivered.
After the "ok" on the couch, not only did I manifest a RIDE to my next destination...as opposed to lugging all my shit on the Metro...I was also able to see my friend's all together before I left their house and eat a delicious din din.
I was happy.
I spent the next 2 nights on a couch in Vanves, another Parisian suburb...pretty much a lateral move from Cachan. Great place, great couch, great new friend.
Thankful.
Time for more purposeful creating..."I want to be IN Paris."
I've been in the suburbs since I've been here, only visiting Paris during the days and for an occasional night out. It was time for me to really do the Paris thing.
Knowing I had until Sunday night on the Vanves couch, Saturday morning, I sent 2 couch surfing requests on CouchSurfing.com, and set off into Paris to do godknowswhat. While on the metro, after downing a sandwich from the boulangerie, I decided to go to sit on the steps of Sacre Coeur and look over the city.
When I arrived in 18th, it was the usually 38 million tourists crawling the streets like vermin. I busted thru the crowds, iPod blaring Jimi Hendrix in my ears, and headed toward the church that doesn't recognize shorts as appropriate. [read about that here.]
After being harassed by street vendors, I finally managed my way to the top of the steps. I found a nice corner and lit my black clove. I watched the crows, the tourists, the sky and the city. Jimi really makes for a great life soundtrack, let me tell you. I looked out into the wild gray yonder and envisioned living IN Paris. Twenty minutes or so had passed when I got a text saying "Are U still searching un coach for tonight? Flo (from CS)"
Oui. [!!]
and, again....
It's ON and poppin!
The Universe has delivered.
more to come from this developing story...
biz
I have since left my friends lovely home in the quiet Paris suburb of Cachan, to...of all things...end up...
Couch Surfing.
Let me just say...
A
W
E
S
O
M
E
experience.
I've been forced [knowingly and consciously] to trust in the Universe and allow my life to literally develop right before my eyes.
I began this authentic gypsy lifestyle last week, Thursday night. After working my first night at one of the coolest bars in Paris, not knowing where I was going to sleep the following evening, I was sent an angel...with an available couch.
Word.
So here's basically how it went...
I returned to Cachan after I got off work...uh, at 6am...and crashed for my last night [which was, by that time, really Thursday morning]. After "sleeping" for the "night" [...I hardly consider 3.5hrs of sleep, waking up at 10am after an all night shift, a "good nights sleep" LOL], I finished packing my suitcases, at a nice lunch and Nespresso-ed a purple capsule [anyone who knows about Nespresso, the purple cap has a "strength" level of 9...GOOD MORNING!].
Upon my what-is-my-new-life-adventure-going-to-be-like reflection, and chat with, Fetta, my friend's nanny, as I awaited official confirmation of my couch, I made a call to Shine & had one last chit chat before my adventure began. [I had no idea when I was going to have access to another "fixed" line, cuz my cell is prepaid...and an hour+ of .55c/min chitting is not in this gypsy's current budget! ...and we're talking Euros folks...]
The few days prior to leaving my friend's place, I had been pretty scared of what the unknown would bring. It truly took effort for me to continually shift my thinking and feeling toward what I wanted to experience...rather than seeing myself sitting in some random phone booth with all my shit in the rainy Paris winter...which could have been very real...if I chose that thought.
For [especially] those few days before, I really shifted my beliefs of what "was" and what could be. I literally had to give up trying to "figure it all out", and allow what I believed the Universe to be...be. And, trust It.
So, I trusted.
Around 3:45 [aka 15h45 cuz I'm in France] Thursday afternoon, I got my confirmation on the couch.
It's ON and poppin!
The Universe has delivered.
After the "ok" on the couch, not only did I manifest a RIDE to my next destination...as opposed to lugging all my shit on the Metro...I was also able to see my friend's all together before I left their house and eat a delicious din din.
I was happy.
I spent the next 2 nights on a couch in Vanves, another Parisian suburb...pretty much a lateral move from Cachan. Great place, great couch, great new friend.
Thankful.
Time for more purposeful creating..."I want to be IN Paris."
I've been in the suburbs since I've been here, only visiting Paris during the days and for an occasional night out. It was time for me to really do the Paris thing.
Knowing I had until Sunday night on the Vanves couch, Saturday morning, I sent 2 couch surfing requests on CouchSurfing.com, and set off into Paris to do godknowswhat. While on the metro, after downing a sandwich from the boulangerie, I decided to go to sit on the steps of Sacre Coeur and look over the city.
When I arrived in 18th, it was the usually 38 million tourists crawling the streets like vermin. I busted thru the crowds, iPod blaring Jimi Hendrix in my ears, and headed toward the church that doesn't recognize shorts as appropriate. [read about that here.]
After being harassed by street vendors, I finally managed my way to the top of the steps. I found a nice corner and lit my black clove. I watched the crows, the tourists, the sky and the city. Jimi really makes for a great life soundtrack, let me tell you. I looked out into the wild gray yonder and envisioned living IN Paris. Twenty minutes or so had passed when I got a text saying "Are U still searching un coach for tonight? Flo (from CS)"
Oui. [!!]
and, again....
It's ON and poppin!
The Universe has delivered.
more to come from this developing story...
biz
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Mustard Seed.
You never really know how you affect others by just Being your Self.
I've been fortunate to hear how much my Being has impacted others in a positive way.
It's quite a blessing I must say.
wow.
thank you!
[be the change...]
I've been fortunate to hear how much my Being has impacted others in a positive way.
It's quite a blessing I must say.
wow.
thank you!
[be the change...]
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Today's Horoscope...
Someone is spying on my life and sending me messages online...
My horoscope for today:
Sunday, Nov 22nd, 2009 -- You may be uneasy with all that's happening now, yet this is an opportunity for you to move past your own fears. You often prefer to hold on to what you already have because familiarity breeds security. But this isn't about being safe; it's about taking a risk to align your life with your true intentions. You could be pleasantly surprised today if you have the courage to stretch beyond your regular limits.
Honestly, I'm quite happy for the angels who are stalking me. Their messages are right on!
My horoscope for today:
Sunday, Nov 22nd, 2009 -- You may be uneasy with all that's happening now, yet this is an opportunity for you to move past your own fears. You often prefer to hold on to what you already have because familiarity breeds security. But this isn't about being safe; it's about taking a risk to align your life with your true intentions. You could be pleasantly surprised today if you have the courage to stretch beyond your regular limits.
Honestly, I'm quite happy for the angels who are stalking me. Their messages are right on!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Creation.
From Love,
I created you.
I imagined you.
I wrote a list of all the things that I wanted you to be.
I dreamt of you.
You appeared.
I was surprised, to say the least.
Because you are perfect.
You are beautiful inside and out.
From head to toe.
Your eyes shine like jewels in the sun.
Your heart is as expansive as the Universe.
Your soul glows a golden light.
Your voice resonates peace and tranquility.
You are kind and gentile.
You are generous and selfless.
You are loving and affectionate.
You are compassionate and considerate.
Our souls met eons ago.
We have traveled many lifetimes together.
We have created together.
I know who you are.
You are a god.
You are a creator.
You are Love manifested.
My heart felt joy and shone brighter than the sun.
All I wanted to do was love you,
To stroke your hair,
Caress your skin,
And tell you everything will be alright.
But...
From fear,
I created, too.
I was afraid of being hurt,
As I had been many times before.
I invented excuses,
And reasons why.
I tried to find flaws, real ones.
But I couldn't.
I know your circumstances aren't perfect,
So my fear used that as leverage.
My heart wanted to move beyond it,
Because I know your burdens will end soon.
But your fears came in and joined mine,
And they created together.
We separated from each other.
We needed "space".
I cried.
My heart was broken.
I felt the pain that I expected,
That I feared would come about.
I got mad at you.
I blamed you for being caught up in the outside world.
I tried to point the finger, but
I created this, too.
Now...
I see, clearly,
Our abilities as god and goddess.
We can create our lives as we see it,
As we want.
Or we can create our lives otherwise.
From this moment,
I have decided to re-create.
I have chosen to return to my original intention,
Love.
I see you, again.
Your smile.
Your Light.
Your heart.
Your soul.
Love conquers all.
Love has conquered my fear.
My hope is that it has conquered yours too.
God.
Goddess.
Love.
Creation.
I created you.
I imagined you.
I wrote a list of all the things that I wanted you to be.
I dreamt of you.
You appeared.
I was surprised, to say the least.
Because you are perfect.
You are beautiful inside and out.
From head to toe.
Your eyes shine like jewels in the sun.
Your heart is as expansive as the Universe.
Your soul glows a golden light.
Your voice resonates peace and tranquility.
You are kind and gentile.
You are generous and selfless.
You are loving and affectionate.
You are compassionate and considerate.
Our souls met eons ago.
We have traveled many lifetimes together.
We have created together.
I know who you are.
You are a god.
You are a creator.
You are Love manifested.
My heart felt joy and shone brighter than the sun.
All I wanted to do was love you,
To stroke your hair,
Caress your skin,
And tell you everything will be alright.
But...
From fear,
I created, too.
I was afraid of being hurt,
As I had been many times before.
I invented excuses,
And reasons why.
I tried to find flaws, real ones.
But I couldn't.
I know your circumstances aren't perfect,
So my fear used that as leverage.
My heart wanted to move beyond it,
Because I know your burdens will end soon.
But your fears came in and joined mine,
And they created together.
We separated from each other.
We needed "space".
I cried.
My heart was broken.
I felt the pain that I expected,
That I feared would come about.
I got mad at you.
I blamed you for being caught up in the outside world.
I tried to point the finger, but
I created this, too.
Now...
I see, clearly,
Our abilities as god and goddess.
We can create our lives as we see it,
As we want.
Or we can create our lives otherwise.
From this moment,
I have decided to re-create.
I have chosen to return to my original intention,
Love.
I see you, again.
Your smile.
Your Light.
Your heart.
Your soul.
Love conquers all.
Love has conquered my fear.
My hope is that it has conquered yours too.
God.
Goddess.
Love.
Creation.
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