Life Learning...

“ After awhile you learn the subtle difference

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning

And company doesn’t mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts

And presents aren’t promises,

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes open,

And learn to build all your roads

On today because tomorrow’s ground

Is too uncertain for plans, and futures have

A way of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine

Burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate

Your own soul, instead of waiting

For someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure…
that you really are strong

And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn.. .

With every goodbye you learn."

— Veronica Shoffstall

Believing In The Impossible.

Believing in the impossible is where your dreams flourish.
Believing in the impossible allows for all things to be possible.

Believing in the impossible you can fly.
Believing in the impossible you don't have to die.

Believing in the impossible you have the freedom to live.
Believing in the impossible you have the willingness to give.

Believing in the impossible dreams become real.
Believe in the impossible by how you feel.

Believe in the impossible.

Believe in the impossible
...and all things become possible.

all things become possible.
all things become possible.



☆ theGoldenChild ☆

Mining The Moment...

Mining the moment for something that feels good, something to appreciate, something to savor, something to take in, that's what your moments are about. They're not about justifying your existence. It's justified. You exist. It's not about proving your worthiness. It's done. You're worthy. It's not about achieving success. You never get it done. It's about "How much can this moment deliver to me?" And some of you like them fast, some of you like them slow. No one's taking score. You get to choose. The only measurement is between my desire and my allowing. And your emotions tell you everything about that.

--- Abraham

Spring Cleaning...[!]

It's obvious that I haven't written in a while...so I won't mention it.

Alors !
[I'm SO becoming French...and LOVING it !]
Today begins the purging of old shit to allow for the new.

Yes...

Spring Cleaning !!

Since I've been in Paris, I've accumulated a lot of stuff.
New stuff.
Which means, it's time for some of the old stuff to go. Not only physically...cuz my bags are as heavy as an elephant with a brick on it's back...but, also energetically.

A few days ago, [March 20th, the first day of Spring, to be exact] I made a visit to the cemetery in Bagneux [a suburb of Paris, where I'm currently staying]. I went with the intention to lay to rest my old self and my old feelings and beliefs in order to allow the new & improved Me to flourish.

It was quite an experience, let me tell you. The energy in this cemetery was like none other I've ever encountered before. It was eerily magical. [Aside from the fact I literally realized a night dream I had about this experience...far out, man. Faaaaar out!!]

The ritual was simple and intuitive. Before I left the house, I dressed in all black, smoked a bowl, prepared my eulogy, and set off on my bike and headed for the cemetery. When I made my way thru the entrance, I felt the energy shift...I entered a vortex, an alternate universe. All I can say is, "Wow".
From that point forward, I just followed my intuition and allowed it to guide me along the empty roads to the plot where I would bury "the Old Me".

**sidebar**
Let me just say, that I WISH I could've had a video camera installed in my brain, my eyes as the lens, and recorded the whole scenario, thoughts and feelings included, for all of you to see and experience. It was un truc de ouf ["a crazy thing"], vraiment...wowsers.

After the burial, laying to rest all that no longer served me & my higher purpose, I created a "headstone" out of bits of earth I collected from the site. A plot marker, just for me. As I headed out of the cemetery, I came across a trash bin with some very alive plants thrown inside. I reached in the bin and pulled out two of the little bushes, put them in the basket of my bike and headed for the "door".

I entered the cemetery to bury the dead, and exited with new life [and a HUGE smile].

Happy Spring, everyone !!

I Love you.

Stand By Me

Vraiment...c'est le meilleur !!



Stand by me.

I'm standing by you !!

It's Shit...Let It GO!!

Yesterday, I went to hammam for the first time ever. Pretty amazing experience.

For those of you who are not familiar with hammam, is like a Turkish bath house...but found in many more countries than Turkey. It's a place where one goes to relax, release, and revitalize. Hammam is a great way to detoxify and shed your old skin [literally] and come out feeling brand new.

Now that everyone is caught up, let's get down to the point of this entry.

After yesterday's repose and external shedding. Today, I'm continuing to feel the effects and letting go of my internal garbage. Not only am I noticing an immediate change in my eating habits, what I'm craving, what I'm not...but also, I'm feeling my insides kicking out all the junk. Not to get all "digestive process" on you, but, trust me, it's for good reason. It's all part of the modus operandi...the way of working.

I know I'm in the midst of a major transformation...my life is changing rapidly [and for the better]. And part of this evolution comes shedding old shit and creating space for the new [shit] <--and I mean that in absolutely the most positive sense.
In my releasing, a thought came to my mind.

When we take a shit...if we could just attach all the "junk" to it...we could really let it [whatever it is] go.

Like the shit it is.

I mean, really...are you gonna go back and eat that shit again because it used to be food?

So, why would you go back to an old relationship that wasn't serving you? A lifestyle that didn't nourish your mind, body and soul? Old feelings or experiences that made you sick?

Hmm.
I think I'm on to something.

Many of us, for whatever reason, hold on to old thoughts, feelings, experiences, ideas, beliefs, and what-have-yous because we find some odd comfort in it. We use these things as our excuses, our limits, our this, our that and we wonder why shit's not moving and why we're feeling sick, slow, tired and a gamut of other sludgery*.
[*yes, I make up words. Isn't that what language is anyway? A bunch of made up words to describe something? yes. Now move on.]

In allowing mySelf to feel Brand New for the first time in a long time, I've realized that I had a lot of shit to let go...and it felt fucking great to do it! The best part is, when you let it go...I mean really let it go, you feel amazing. You no longer feel full of shit. You feel deliciously empty and ready for something more nourishing. You allow your consciousness to extract the vitamins and minerals from your experiences in life and digest the rest of it and sort out the shit it doesn't need...and release. With a single flush, you're left feeling fresh and ready to move forward on to the next part of your experience. You may even relish in the relief for a moment or two, but after that, you don't think about it again. I mean really, no one ever says [at least to my knowledge], "Man, I had this great shit back in December of '83. Woah, man did it ever feel good!"
Yeah...No.
No one.

So, with that not-so-pretty-but-oh-so-relevant description of letting go...

Let it go.
and REALLY let it go.


[flush]

♡.

You Think You Know...But You Have NO Idea.

I'm not quite sure what this particular post is going to be about. As I'm not in the OMG-it's-a-new-year-my-life-is-gonna-be-more-fantastic-than-ever-! mood. As a matter of fact, I really don't even feel like writing.

But here I am.

I guess part of me feels like I should be writing something, since my last post was over a week ago...and it didn't really say much...but, then again, it said a lot at the same time. The other part of me feels like there's nothing pressing to say. Like I'd just be repeating myself in some other clever arrangement of verbiage.

Whatevs.

I could go on and on about what 2009 was like for me...but why? If you want to know...read my entries, check my Facebook...there's no real reason to rehash old shit. Live in the present...that's what I say.

So here we are, January 3rd...2010. What does that mean? So many of us are so excited for the "new year" because last year was so this or so that...but at the end of the day, are you expecting the year to bring you good things...or are you bringing good things to the year?

I must quote a wise old man...from Twitter...

"Universe is 14 billion years old. Seems silly to celebrate one year. Be like having a fucking parade every time I take a piss." - 73 year-old dad [shitmydadsays]

I feel like so many people are expecting things to change just because the clock strikes 12 [or 00h if you're in Europe], but without consciously making a change within themselves first. And then we wonder..."Why did 2010 turn out to be just like 2009/2008/2007/1976?"

Well, my friend, it's because when the time changed...you didn't.

Life is about change...that's one thing, besides physical death, that we can expect. Nothing ever stays exactly the same...similar, yes...the same, no.

What are you going to do to change your life circumstances, besides making 347 New Year's Resolutions that you will forget about by January 13th? Maybe instead of listing all the shit you want to do...make like Nike and JUST DO IT! You gotta start somewhere. I mean really, how many of you ACTUALLY checked off your lists of resolutions last year? And, how many of you have the same inane list you had at the beginning of 2009?[!]

"I'm gonna lose weight/do yoga/quit smoking/drinking/fucking/complaining/washing my whites with my colors..." etc, etc.

I say throw away your list and just start being a better You! And with that, all of those things you want to change about yourSelf and release for good, will happen naturally. Focus on basic things and the specifics will work themselves out. Don't worry about losing 30 pounds, doing yoga 4 times a week, quitting smoking, eating more salads for lunch... Instead, focus on being healthy, generally...and you will see that your body naturally eliminates all those things that keep it feeling crummy.

The same goes for finding Love. Instead of wanting to "find the right guy or girl or dog", just focus on filling yourSelf with Love and knowing and feeling that you are deserving of it. And it will come to you. Release all of your expectations of being married or having a baby by 30/40/50 or whatever. Holding on to those limitations keeps you focused on something that's so unimportant that your tunnel vision prevents you from seeing the magic of Life and meeting "the one" [whatever that means to you] who may, in fact, be standing right in front of you.

The way I see it, New Year's Resolutions are infinite lists of limitations and unnecessary expectations setting one up for failure. Countless times I hear people say that they didn't stick to their list. Come June, no one remembers what they put on the grocery list, let alone what they wrote down January 1st.
To me, it's a joke. What's the point?


I say, just focus on what you want and allow the Universe to bring it to you. Allow the magic to happen, release all expectations of outcome, and allow yourself to be surprised. It's more fun that way. [Trust me, I'm living it.] When you just let go of all the shit, you will see that Life will happen in a way that you could have never expected...beyond your wildest dreams. Life becomes an adventure and It will bring joy and excitement at every turn...if you choose.

So, jump off the expectation bandwagon and jump into the flow of your Life.

Love your Self FIRST and share THAT with others.

You will see your Life turn around faster and you will shine brighter than you could have ever imagined.

Be Love.
Live Love.
Love Love.

...and Enjoy the ride!