Wednesday, June 17, 2009

On A Roll...But Still...

There's so much going on right now it's kind of ridiculous. I'm manifesting great things, which is really exciting.

Today, I returned my car to the dealership & on the way to drop her [Baby, my car.] off, my friend calls me and tells me she's bringing me a bike...TOMORROW!

What are the chances?!

Yesterday, I got word that my apartment has been rented for July and the new tenant wants to buy my bed and a few other things in my place. SO awesome! Cuz that means I get to sleep in my bed until the day I move. [Word!] ...the crazy part is, when I first put my apt on craigslist, I said to myself and the Universe that I would love for the next renter to be the one to buy my bed. And so it is!

What are the chances?!

Things are really moving along. I am definitely on a roll!

But still...

For some reason, I have this feeling in my gut. [...Not a "gut feeling", which is intrinsically very different...] It must be some fear-based program rearing it's ugly head. Maybe it's just reality settling in. The reality that all of this change is really, truly happening. Maybe it's an entity getting fidgety cuz it knows it won't be around much longer. Maybe it's a bit of overwhelmment due to the fact I still have a shit load of paintings to complete before my show on the 27th. Hell, maybe its a culmination of all of the above!

or...maybe it's because I lost my bluetooth. [fuck!]

In any case, it's gross and I don't like it! I'm really focused and keeping my eyes on the prize. As "the time" grows nearer (30 days and counting), my nerves are a bit more sensitive. THIS SHIT IS REALLY HAPPENING! My car is gone. My apartment is gone. My belongings are disappearing one piece at a time.

OH MY G-O-D! *deep breath*

Overall, I am very excited about this new adventure. It's the old me that is freaking out. I'm trynna keep that heffa in check! CALM YO SELF FOO! .......shit!

*deep breath*

Wooooooo Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


  1. I've felt that feeling before, right before moving to NY. Did you feel that before you moved to LA? You will pass through it with success. It' natural to have that little scary feeling.

  2. Thanks, Tasha! You're absolutely right.
    I can't remember if I felt this before I moved to LA, but I think I did before I moved to NY.


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