Monday, June 29, 2009

On the Line...

great message...


I love you.
I thank you.

You inspired me.
You got me through so much.
You changed the world.
You will be missed.

Enjoy bliss.


Sunday, June 21, 2009

Amma Need a Hug....!

I had a most amazing experience in the last 24 hours.

Amma, aka "the Hugging Saint", has been in LA for the last week. I was fortunate to have the chance to witness and experience such an amazing Being.

Shine, Jah-Jah and I ventured down to the LAX Radisson (I know, right?!) to get in line for our hug. We knew that the wait was gonna be long, so we got there "early". The ceremony was scheduled to start at 7:30pm...we arrived at 6. We were escorted into a big ass room with a million chairs and about 8 TVs, and handed a "token" [aka a little yellow paper ticket].

I had NO idea what was going on, or what any of all of this meant. All I knew is I was getting a hug from Amma at some point & I have a little ticket with "K3" printed on it. No explaination. No nothing.

Okay, cool.

As we're sitting in these seats, looking at the back of other people's heads, trying to watch what's happening on the TV monitors, a woman approaches and tells us about the "youth program". Jah is all excited, because to a 5-year old, sitting in a chair and keeping still & being quiet, is not an option. Excited for Amma's hug, he kept telling us, "All I wanna do is have fuuun..." So when he found out that there were other kids and he could go play, he was all about it.

With Jah-Jah enjoying his experience, Shine & I had a chance to chat more about what the hell was going on. By this time, it was around 7:45 and the ceremony had begun. We watched a bit of it on the TV a few rows in front of us. After about 10 minutes of watching, I zoned out.
Not that I wasn't interested, but more so that there was so much else going on around me and within me that I decided to turn it all off for a moment and meditate.

My mind chatter began...I wonder how this works. What is this little token thing for? I wonder how long this is gonna take. I wonder what this is gonna be like. I'm hungry.

Not too long after I "went within", a man came up to us and explained how important our tokens were. This was our cue number. When the hugs begin, the group numbers, in our case, K3, would show on the screen & that's when we go into the main room for our Amma snuggles. *Woo hoo!*

At around 9pm, the "opening" ceremony was over [I have no idea what it is traditionally called, so I'm doing my best, lol] and Amma began giving her Love embraces. We watched the TV screen, "Token - A1".

Okay, cool.

They had some very delicious vegetarian Indian food for all to enjoy...for seven I threw down. Good way to pass the time, I thought.

Stuffed like a lil piggy, I glanced at the TV around 10pm..."Token - B3"

Uh, let's go for a walk.

After a couple more hours of walking around, hanging out in the mini courtyard & allowing Jah to run around. We headed back inside.

"Token - E5"


We went back to the room where they had the kids program earlier in the evening. It was pretty empty considering the rest of the 2nd floor was overflowing with people. The lights were a bit dimmer and it was MUCH quieter than in the other rooms. There was a guy (someone's dad, I'm sure) laying on the floor snoozing. Not a bad idea, I thought. "Let's go snatch up that corner," I said, "I'm about to follow this guy's lead."

Jah-Jah ran over to play with 2 little girls, Shine sat in a chair at the table, and I made my jacket into a pillow and laid my ass on the floor!

"Token - G1"

Good night.

At around 2am, Shine wakes me up, "They're on K1! It's our turn. Let's go!"
I wipe the drool off my pillow, shake my fro and put my shoes on. Jah is fast asleep & Shine is trying to wake him. No go...this kid's out like a light. Have you ever seen anyone sleep standing up? Well, I have...his name is Jah-Jah and he's 5.

I grab the boy, she grabs our stuff and we head to Amma.

There's probably about 40 million billion people milling around the venue at this point. It's pretty insane. We find out where we need to be and arrive in perfect time. There are 2 rows of chairs with a sign posted on the back of each..."Darshan Line" with an arrow pointing forward. I felt like I was in line for the Giant Drop at Six-Flags. Instead of standing in line, we were sitting in line. It was a little like musical chairs...put your ass in the closest open seat. When the person in front of you moves up, you move up. Now, try this half asleep, with a s 60 pound kid drooling on your about coordination! *champion!*

After about 5 minutes of craziness, I'm up & fully alert. I've got 20 chairs or so to wake this kid up. This was a challenge. How do I wake a sleeping child without making him upset or cranky?!?

...with tickles!!

Musical chairs, move up one.

Well, tickling a 5-year olds ribs wasn't completely effective, because even after he'd wiggle and crack an eyelid, he kept falling back asleep.

Musical chairs, move up one more. Try again.

Luckily, my next move, I sat next to a man and his lady (I assume) who were watching my feeble attempts to wake this kid. The man says, "Do you mind if I hold his hand and give him some energy? This will help wake him up." "Sure! Please!" I said with a smile. The man takes Jah's tiny chocolate hand into his and begins. In the meantime, I'm still working my "magic" trying to bring him out of the ethers.

After about 5 or so minutes of energy work, Jah starts scratching his fro. Ha! It's working! The man explains to me that the energy he's sending goes straight to the crown & thus the head scratch. A few more minutes & it's time to move again. I thank the nice man & he gives a most gracious smile. What a lovely spirit, I thought.

Bleary-eyed, WonderBoy is finally coming to. "Mommyyyyyy. Where's my mommy?" He grumbles. "She's sitting right in front of us, Jah-Jah. See?" I tap on Shine's back and they connect. *Woo hoo!* For the next 15 or so seats, Shine takes over as Jah comes back to Earth.

We finally get to the stage where Amma is sitting. She's surrounded by what seems like a million people..but is probably only about twelve or fifteen. There are people waiting on each side of the stage, in their respective chairs to receive Amma's loving embrace. A man comes over with a pleasant smile and a name tag that says "Doctor" and escorts us into the last 2 spots.....we're next.

The rest was a bit of a whirlwind. As Shine and Jah are receiving their blessing. I was admiring all that surrounded us. Amma had a most beautiful silver headpiece with emeralds, rubies and diamonds. She wore a yellow sari and her aura glowed bright white. I was shuffled to the left of Shine & received my hug. I closed my eyes and took it all in. Amma smelled of roses and her energy was magnificent. She recited a mantra in my right ear as she hugged me. I didn't understand the language, but I knew it was very blessed and empowering...I could feel it. I felt a jolt of energy at the culmination of our embrace. She looked at me and gave me the warmest most loving smile. I thanked her as she put 2 Hershey's Kisses and 2 rose petals in my hand. I felt at peace.

After over 9 hours of waiting, it was all over...and totally worth it. I feel honored to have had such a magical experience before I head off on my journey to France. My knowing is strengthened, my piece of mind is sound. I am ready for the next stage.

...may the force be with you!


Thursday, June 18, 2009

Movin'?! ...Yeah!! Groovin'?! ....YEAH!!

So, I worked my way thru yesterday's lil' hiccup ...aka fear... AND I found my bluetooth! [hooray!!]

*happy dances*

Today was much better. I painted for hourrrrrrrrrs! [super fantastic!]

*happy dances*

I also got a few things straightened out in my head, so I'm feeling much calmer and more at ease. I decided to move my art show to July 8th {07-08-09! super cool!} which gives me a bunch more time to paint. [awesomeness!] Last night, I organized and gesso'd [paint prep] all of my canvases and I'm feeling totally inspired to paint more shit tomorrow. In the meantime, I am patiently awaiting my industrial glow-in-the-dark paint to should be here by Friday! *excitement!*

*happy dances*

Life is good!

*happy dances*

stay tuned.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

On A Roll...But Still...

There's so much going on right now it's kind of ridiculous. I'm manifesting great things, which is really exciting.

Today, I returned my car to the dealership & on the way to drop her [Baby, my car.] off, my friend calls me and tells me she's bringing me a bike...TOMORROW!

What are the chances?!

Yesterday, I got word that my apartment has been rented for July and the new tenant wants to buy my bed and a few other things in my place. SO awesome! Cuz that means I get to sleep in my bed until the day I move. [Word!] ...the crazy part is, when I first put my apt on craigslist, I said to myself and the Universe that I would love for the next renter to be the one to buy my bed. And so it is!

What are the chances?!

Things are really moving along. I am definitely on a roll!

But still...

For some reason, I have this feeling in my gut. [...Not a "gut feeling", which is intrinsically very different...] It must be some fear-based program rearing it's ugly head. Maybe it's just reality settling in. The reality that all of this change is really, truly happening. Maybe it's an entity getting fidgety cuz it knows it won't be around much longer. Maybe it's a bit of overwhelmment due to the fact I still have a shit load of paintings to complete before my show on the 27th. Hell, maybe its a culmination of all of the above!

or...maybe it's because I lost my bluetooth. [fuck!]

In any case, it's gross and I don't like it! I'm really focused and keeping my eyes on the prize. As "the time" grows nearer (30 days and counting), my nerves are a bit more sensitive. THIS SHIT IS REALLY HAPPENING! My car is gone. My apartment is gone. My belongings are disappearing one piece at a time.

OH MY G-O-D! *deep breath*

Overall, I am very excited about this new adventure. It's the old me that is freaking out. I'm trynna keep that heffa in check! CALM YO SELF FOO! .......shit!

*deep breath*

Wooooooo Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Our House...In the Middle of Our Street...

I am COMPLETELY in awe of how magical the Universe truly is!

As you know, I'm moving to Paris, July 15th. I set out on this journey not knowing how exactly it was going to unfold. I didn't "plan" the move. It just came to me as a knowing that this is what I was supposed to do. So, I accepted and expected.

Well over the past few days, I've jumped into hyperspeed! Things are coming together left and right. Last night, my friend, Matt, offered me his frequent flyer miles toward my ticket to France! And, TODAY, Tammy offered me her miles, too! Soooo, I am stockpiling airline miles to get my ass to Paris! *Woo hoo!!*

*preface* Back in February, I met a French woman, Muriel, while working a production gig. She and her crew came to LA from Paris to shoot a few commercials for French TV. During the shoot, we formed a small bond. It was affirmed the day I brought her to Whole Foods to round up "American" delicacies for her family and friends back in France. She said to me, "If you ever come to Paris, you are welcome to visit me and my family." "Sure, I would LOVE to!" I graciously thanked her and put it to the back of my mind. *end*

This past Monday, I sent Muriel an email telling her about my move to Paris in July. As a "P.S." I asked her if she knew anyone that needed a roomie, renter or house-sitter. She replied the following day. She said it was nice hearing from me & she wanted to know more about my plans. I explained that my plan was really no plan at all. It was just that I knew I was arriving July 15th and the rest would unfold as the time grew near.

Well, here's another amazing thing that happened today...

I got an email reply from Muriel. She and her family are vacationing for a month and need someone to house-sit and watch their cat....wellllll, guess who's comin' to dinner?!

Correctement! C'est, moi!


She offered her place to me while they are away on holiday! They leave July 18th, which gives me 3 days to settle in and learn the lay of the land before they jet. Here's the best's a little house with a garden and a barbecue. It's 3km (appx 2 miles) from Porte d'Orleans (southern Paris). It's a 5 min walk to the fast train to the city and they live in a great neighborhood & there's a big park with a castle 10 mins away!

I swear this couldn't be more perfect! I am SO very thankful for how everything is working out & how the Universe is delivering blessings to me thru my friends (my family) and other amazing Beings. I can't put into words what I am feeling right now. This is truly divine!

When you listen to your heart, trust COMPLETELY and release all fear...the path unfolds right before your eyes.

I know that I'm on the right track and it's constantly being confirmed every moment of every day. For that, I am grateful. This is one absolutely amazing adventure! I can't wait to see what happens next!

♪♫ baam baam baaaaammmmm! ♪♫


Friday, June 12, 2009

Why Can't We Just Live On Free Beats?

This is really dope!

video courtesy of: UlteriorProductions
but I discovered it on...Our Kitchen Sink

I love how so many different people step to the mic and do their thing!!

Free beats should be our new currency!


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Awwww Freak Out! Le Freak C'est Chic!

Okay so it's 5 weeks til D-day......D-day I move to Paris! [whaamp whaamp - bad joke, I know, but I couldn't resist!]

Last week, I was on cloud 9 every friggin' day...clouds or sun, it didn't matter, I was in bliss. Woo hoo!
Yesterday, however, it really hit me...

"DUDE! I'm moving to PARIS...! OMG?!" and " FIVE WEEKS!"

Then the inevitable, Oh, shit!, settled in. At that moment it dawned on me how truly overwhelmed I was. And, I had absolutely no idea!

Even though, I was getting great things accomplished last week, my mind was somewhere out in the ethers dancing with stars and moonbeams. And, the reality of my decision hadn't completely gelled........until now.

I know I put this "deadline" on myself, which it's totally cool....but, after the 1st week since making the decision was over, I realized that there is A LOT of fucking shit to do! I'm happy the honeymoon phase has passed so quickly and that I've launched this week with a different awareness.

If you've been reading along, you know that I've been playing the Three Feet From Gold game since June 1st. Each week we, as a group, have a conference call & discuss the events of the past week, as well as set the tone for the current week. Well, our group goal for this week is for each of us to create and utilize an effective time-management system for ourselves.

My initial thought was, "*sigh* What is this?!? HIGH SCHOOL?!?" accompanied by an internal roll of the eyes, "I haaaate schedules...!"

Then something inside me said, "Buuuuut[!]...maybe this can be helpful!"

So, I cast my ego aside and wrote out my list of goals each day for the next 3 days. I added how much time I intended to spend on each task. I also gave myself a consequence and a reward for each day to ensure I don't lolly gag and let shit fall to the wayside.

So far, so good!

I feel like I am more focused and totally getting the most out of my day! The best part is, I've scheduled myself time to write! This way, I get to blog without feeling like, "I should be doing something else."

What a great feeling!!

Now there is time for everything! ...including parties and dancing and art shows and lunches and all kinds of other cool shit!

I'm feeling SO much better. The overwhelmment is rapidly dissolving & the excitement is becoming even stronger!

I feel kinda like Lionel Richie in 1986...[minus the funky pants & white socks with black shoes...]

♪♬ ♪ Oh, what a feeeeeling! When we're dancin on the ceeeiling! ♪♫♪

*happy dances*

Sunday, June 7, 2009


[this post was originally on another blog of mine...but I've decided to repost them here...mainly cuz I actually have READERS on this site! LOL]


–noun, plural -gies.
1. an abnormal reaction of the body to a previously encountered allergen introduced by inhalation, ingestion, injection, or skin contact, often manifested by itchy eyes, runny nose, wheezing, skin rash, or diarrhea.
*courtesy of

(Ouch! Diarrhea?!)

After a very insightful, enlightening conversation about flower essences, speaking with plants & animals, and Gaia, our Mother Goddess Earth, a thought came to my mind. If we are supposed to be living as One with the Earth, with Nature and all its inhabitants, why would anyone be allergic to any of it?

Our bodies are biologically designed to maintain perfect health at all times. However, ones feeling thoughts and beliefs are what end up manifesting sickness, or dis-ease, into the body. Also, the severity of the dis-ease [or symptoms] can be a physical manifestation attuned to the degree of strength of those thoughts and beliefs.

With that said, since plants & animals are healing, and also carry messages & meanings for us, if someone is allergic to a particular plant or animal, does this mean they have a subconscious resistance to what that particular totem represents?

For example, an allergy to cats.

Using the book, Animal-Speak, as a reference, a Cat represents Mystery, Magic and Independence. Going a little further into detail, the book says, " To cats have been attributed a wide variety of traits [...]. Curiosity, nine lives, independence, cleverness, unpredictability, and healing [...]"

Could it be that a person with an allergy to cats, may have to address & resolve blocks within these certain areas of their Life? Furthermore, is it plausible that, upon releasing said blocks, the individual would no longer be allergic?

At this point, I'm not aware of any research that has been done on this topic. However, I feel like, if I've thought of it, I'm sure someone else has, too. So, maybe there is some good information about it somewhere "out there". Either way it goes, I have a feeling, there is a lot of truth to it.


The Dukes....

I had to post this cuz I met General Lee today.

Yes, THE General Lee from the Dukes of Hazzard!

I loved that show as a kid...and here I go for coffee today & not only see one of the coolest cars from 80s TV [next to K.I.T.T. & The A-Team Van], but I also meet and make friends with the owner!!

And it gets better...[!]

Jerry, The General's owner, is allowing me to do a photoshoot with the car!

Life is good! Life is very good! for the photographer...!



Saturday, June 6, 2009

TOTALLY Inspired...!

I was reading the UltravioletUnderground blog today and came across a very inspiring Being, Chanel Kennebrew, and I absolutely had to share! Chanel is the creator of Junkprints, a line of super cool graphic & illustrated wares ranging from funky dresses to kick-ass backpacks to super fun wallets. And, her blog, Dookieblog, is a blast to read! *bonus!*

Chanel is très cool and ridiculously creative. Here's a video interview I found on Etsy. Watch see for yourself...

video courtesy of: Handmade Portraits

We are all here to inspire each other....SO[!].....Chanel, kudos to you for being absolutely your SELF, living in your fullest spirit and doing exactly what you love to do! I wish you continuous bliss, joy and prosperity! With that, I say THANK YOU...for you have truly inspired Me!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Three Feet From GOLD!

Today begins The Three Feet From Gold Game...and I'm so fucking excited I could pee my pants! [buuuuut, I won't]

The Game consists of a small group of AMAZING women who are banding together to help each other achieve our dreams!

Here's a brief rundown of how this thang works...

Each individual sets an astronomical 90-day goal (or set of goals) for herself...something that she's always dreamed of doing or being or having. And each week she will do certain tasks that progress her toward realizing this goal.

We have our own Three Feet From Gold Game mini-website ( a private Facebook) where we each have our own profile page. This way we can maintain contact with one another, upload pix and videos, post discussions and blogs, etc, etc. [very cool! ...if you click on the title of this blog you can see my page]

As a group, we all come together for a weekly conference call to discuss our progress and set the tone & theme for the up coming week. [...this week is ROCKSTAR Week!] Within the group, we partner up and check in daily with our buddy to make sure we're doing exactly what we're supposed to do and staying on track. By teaming up AND belonging to a larger group, we are all holding each other accountable for our progress...and ultimate success.

So, what really makes each of us push forward, beyond the hey-girl-did-you-get so-and-so-accomplished-[check-"yes"-or-check-"no"]?
Well, if one did not complete her weekly goal, she would have to endure a consequence. The consequences are individually tailored, very creative...and equally unpleasant...yet, helps us toward reaching our end goal.

For example...let's say I didn't fulfill my goal(s) this consequence would be to stand on the corner of a busy intersection in LA for 3 hours and sing Dancin' Machine by the Jackson 5 while wearing a gold sequin jacket and a sign that says, "I'm singin' and dancin' my way to Paris & I need money!" [OMG! *eek*] and have a jar by my side for people to put dollar bills in. [HIGHLY undesirable!] ...the mere thought of this makes me want to keep my shit tight! *ack!*

On the flip side, if one were to successfully complete her weekly goal, there would be an individually tailored reward. Like treating herself to a spa pampering or buying something she's always wanted...or whatever she deemed rewarding [in my case...smoking a bowl! *wink*].

Through this "game", we all have the potential and the ability to achieve our dreams! ...this is what fuels me. The idea of truly having and being exactly what I want, is pretty fucking amazing [AND a little scary]. I am so very excited to see what I am able to accomplish in a relatively short amount of time.

Stay tuned.......for this is what theGoldenChild Adventures is REALLY about!

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